Cute outfits and Barfing (not related)

Bria has been waking up a little earlier lately and it's funny how tired I am even though it's only 45 minutes earlier. Guess she can't wait to start the day ;)

When I put this headband on Bria she looked so adorable that I told Brian to grab the camera, we need pictures stat!

It was actually a bow that Jenny and Kyle put on Brian's present way back when they got married. I kept it in hopes that we could put it on our baby girl one day, and now we can! Thanks for the cute headband Tegners :)

Notice how MJ snuck in the pictures? Can you say jealous?

"What do you need Mom, I'm kinda busy helping Dad with his homework."

My friend Jenna sent me this adorable onesie. She said she just couldn't pass it up and thought of Bria right away when she saw it, I LOVE it!!

(I had a hard time getting a picture because someone wanted the camera, but it's a cheerleading shirt, so adorable)

It's been awhile since Erin and Gabe have come over because of the holiday madness. Both Bria and I were so excited when they came over to play yesterday. Gabe is the cutest little guy, he is so happy. Bria loves grabbing his hands and face. She's also jealous of all his hair, the little guy has already had a haircut and he's only 5 months! Oh man, I am just dreaming of all the boys I could put on Bria if she had that much hair.

I have to say this is one of my favorite outfits. I've been eying it for awhile and my mom got it for Bria for Christmas, yay! The onesie underneath the jacket says, "Smile if you think I'm cute!"

And then the jacket has a pink Bug on it-perfect.

I wish this picture wasn't blurry, I love it.

"Well hey good looking, fancy seeing you here."

Prevacid

I thought it was working. I thought we found a solution to Bria's throwing up. I thought she had acid reflux. I also thought a rice cooker was a crock pot.

It has been 3 weeks of Bria being on Prevacid consistently, haven't missed one day. She is still throwing up.

The other day we were at my moms and she was throwing up so much that I lost count at 8. My mom's poor carpet, we had carpet cleaner all over it. Then she barfed on the chair, and me, and it just didn't end. Ugh.

I can't tell you how deflated I feel. I hate seeing Bria throw up, I hate thinking about what it's doing to her esophagus, I hate that I can't fix it, I hate even more that her doctor won't spend more than 2 seconds trying to diagnose it, I hate that our insurance is being a pain and hasn't reimbursed us for the Prevacid.

I hear stories about how some babies throw up a lot and then one day they stop, will that be Bria tomorrow? I pray it is. If not, I think we may need a second opinion. We've got to figure this out. I need to be stronger and stand up to her doctor, I'm her mother and I need to find the courage and confrontational skills to say, "Listen, I don't just want medicine, I want a solution. I want to figure out the real problem and fix it for good. You hear me?!"

I find myself getting into the mode of, "Why Bria. Why did this have to happen to her?" And then I snap out of it and think about all the little babies who have things much worse. Bria is healthy in every other way and I need to remember that and be grateful.

It just gets exhausting watching her barf, cleaning the carpet, doing her laundry, doing my laundry, repeat. MJ had to get a haircut and bath this weekend because Bria barfed all over her. It was kind of funny and MJ was trying to figure out where the barf was and looked all over the rug.

Today Bria and I are headed to the library to check out some books, I think both her and I are ready for some new stories :)